HAPPY april fool !
SCHOOL-ed .
tried to sleep .
real tired .
I just need a friend that can talk to me , console , advice me always !
went hougang polyclinic with BITCHES to take their report .
prank call & fool some people .
fool mengsoon , he play-ed along , den he say april fool lahs hors .
fool silas HUMAN , say I tio taiji , he really believe siahs .
HE say he jitao from pasir ris come down hougang -.-
LOL , good lahs HIM .
den say no need lahs , april fool --"
fool benjamin , say I quarrel with HIM & blahs .
he jitao believe den ask is it april fool ?
kelvinKOR came , I went off with him to bugis there .
colect his game stuffs , return back to hougang .
I really NO MOOD !
never mind , kelvin entertain me all the way :0
talk about HIM = HAIS !@
meet anna & co , they tell me stuffs about ben ;x
call-ed him & sharon .
I was like such a fool .
dun understand what they talking .
If stead jiu admit .
I also dunmind de lehs .
anything lahs zZz .
HOME sweet home after that !
sorry jolyn , for shouting at you for some stupid reason , bad mood though .
sorry friends , due to mood sucks , show you people attitude :[
SORRY .
I keep on mention about him when memoriies struck .
I had been a pest .
I'm sorry , I cried again even though I promised to be strong .
things dun go well , as how we want it to be !

Let's just think I'm covering up for him !
helping him for just HIS sake .
& please , if rumours , please stop spreading !
& benjamin , stay out of his matters , my matters !
you totally disappoint me .
& whoever your girlf is , I DUNCARE !
I want to help him , let him treat me like ~!@#$%^&*() .
my choice okays ?
go ahead saying I'm cheap & bitchy oks ?

& YOU , I really did alot already .
are you getting happier without me in your life ?
I'm not .
I tried to help , I really tried .
I almost giveup , breakdown .
I know I have alot of complains & grudges .
I know I shldnt be saying all this .
FRIENDS is what you want now , suit you .
Do I still have a chance to hold you back .
I'm really not having it happy , just hope you will be back .
I believe there's just one day I will walk away from this ,
will you be much happier ?
without me ?
I know you for just two weeks , but I really remember everything .
do you still ?
EVERY single things .
surprise me please .
I will be much happier .
I really feel like having a nice talk with you ,
waiting fo your text for a meetup if you're free .
I dunwan to annoy you anymore .
will you text me automatically if I din text you , just like last time x[
will you really be satisfied If I really totally given up ?
I'm just afraid you still wont realise that I'm really gone oneday .
Both of us move on , but I still hold that small percent that you will turn back .
I just hope , seriously hope yo realise and learn to cherish and turn back .
I will wait .
all this takes time .
If you really forget about me & get a new girl , let me know :[
I will wait as long as I can (:
since I will wait , I'm prepared to take all the rubbish thingy about you .
I will accept your past , understand ?
read your latest post , I believe people accused you about the rumours .
YES , I believe you alright ?
rumours are just to pull people down , making their closed pals shoo from them .
childish acts .
I just hope you know , give me another chance , will you ?
I just need something from you , a chance give to me again .!
I will be strong , holding on that little chance that you will turn back & I will wait . You need time , take it as long as you want . no point crying like fcuk .
Although , Its only two short weeks .
but I can feel that you are someone that treats me nice :D
be it true or fake , still a big thanks to you , BOY/DUMB .
I MISSED you so :x

XoXo , WAITING is a job in life .
I will .
It's just too complicated .
Thanks benjamin & sharon for like taking care of me ?
I will be alright .
just let me think of him .
Do last long for you both (:

Tags replied -

Tricia ,
of course its nice .
SORRY for been bugging you all the way .
you have your stead , I know I shldnt hold onto you .
I will try .
BIG sorry :[

Claudia ,
dunno lehs .
you try when you're free bahs .

SHARON ,
alright .
If he ask me back ?
impossible -.-

AMIKA ,
QINGAI .
today I super friendly LOL !

NICOLE ,
ahMEI .
hao lahs .
♥ you this pubor kia :X

ANDAND silas HUMAN , thanks for your chim words to cheer me up .
better guys outside ?
maybe bahs .
but all I can do is to wait now .
I will not hide behind the mask assuming that I'm alright !
I will cry out loud alright ?
MAYBE , I will run to you & cry :[
make sure you are free during that time :D
sorry for fooling you that I got taiji , woahs .
thanks pal (:

TRICIA ,
I told you how I blame you for ...
I'm sorry !
I hope I will still turn to yo .
sorry for disturbing you sometimes .
I'm just afraid if I breakdown , nobody will be there !
I keep on asked you " what will you do if I really breakdown ? "
you replied , you will be there to pull me up again .
THANKS lots .

ANNA ,
You tried to console me but you said , you are not good at consoling .
I understand !
thanks lots for being there when I need you .

MICHELE , liling & GIRLS (:
THANKS lot too !
for stopping being emo side , alone .
tried to entertain me with lame , cold jokes .
& liling for so much LOVE @!

A VERY LONG POST TODAY !
YES ffriends , I will be back with a real smile soon .
disturb you all , guailan with you , joke & crapped .
I WILL be back to single & waiting life ,
HIM HIM HIM only .
WAITING ~
A SMILE for waiting him , A real me for being with you all ! :D