Happy Birthday Kelvin L .
I couldnt meet TSK because i got tution .
):


Tution later on .
Screw balls with maths .
Sucks to the core .
Ok , no ranting about schoolwork .
I just read tricia's blog .
I got so much to say .
But i just couldnt let anyone know .
I kept it to myself , seriously it sucks .
I'm a stranger to you now .
I know , i sense you're tooo !
Ya , this sentence hurts .
To me , or maybe to you also .
I wanted to rant and keep on whine to michele or liling .
But who's here ?
You know what ?
I eventually confide in john instead .
He's a nice friend , really a nice friend .
Although his cold no-link jokes really makes me laugh for no reason .

We dont hope one day we will get back to how we're like .
We can only wait and seee .
You're with jolyn , i'm very ok with it .
You can rely on her .
I really dont mind but somehow happy for you . I swear !
I'm not being fake down here .
Remember what i say to you ?
Im gald at least there's jolyn you can rely on in class , the first day of your school , i text you this.
You're not a failure friend , you are a wonderful friends to others .

But how you want me to react ?
A smile to cover everything ?
Act blur and say isit ?
People been telling me , yes i know everything .
I can seee .

You're so far from me , even one day i will forget your existence .
But i wont forget i once have you this nice friend .
I cant complain to any others .
They will be giving me a nice scolding .
I told kevin , he say im cant decide for you , you decide for yourself .
I cannot give up on you , that will only shows how "much" i treasure you .
I'm in wrong ?
Am I ?
I already stop whinning about your stuffs to liling in class alreadyy !
I already stop reminding myself , it's time to ask about tricia's happennings " .
You are special to me in any kind .
I wont forget you .


That's why , i remove access from my P.blog for a reason .
Shar , where the hell are you ?!
I need you so much now .
I feel so much better after saying everything out ok.
I didnt intend to say out because i wouldnt want you peeps to have the idea of me wanting people to pity on me .
I've been keeping all this to myself for days .
I rather tell people , pictures can lie .
:( :( :(
I already try to joke , laugh although it's fake .
Ok , control emotions !
Tution later , i want to laugh at melvyn's and john's jokes like i never laugh out loud before !


All this is to you .
Please dont even tear after reading this .
I've make you sad enough .
I disappoint you , i didnt think in your position .
I THINK ONLY FOR MYSELF .
Here , sincerely . Im sorry tricia .
This is not to make you touched at all !
It's just i've been wanting to tell someone that can bear my grudges .


Jolyn Ng , take good care of this silly girl tricia .
I never will want to give up on her .
But yes , i couldnt be by her side when she's at her down moments .
And although we are not friends anymore , lucks to your course btw (:
Takecare .



You know .. all this hurts ):
I've learn to keep everything to myself.
But you know , im not that kind of keep stuffs to myself , i cant .
I must say out , but im learning to not trouble people with mu stuffs .
2 days ago , i text michele and liling appologizing about me always whinning .
I promise not to so much already .


OK , shut up for now .
No more complaining .
BYE .