my mind was in a mess right now .
had the urge to give him up immediately .
as in am i interrupting HER into accepting HIM ?
but will SHE accept him with her whole heart ?
but when will this all end ?
5 people is struggling over right here .
i will named it A , B , C , D & E .
as to no offences .
A related to B .
B related to A & C .
C related to B & D .
E related to D .
A & E are friends .
C & E are also friends .
B & D are friends too .
related in a sense of having that LOVE !
there must be someone to back out , either A,C or E .
to make the two couple tgt .
will the person that back out is me ?
i guess i have to ?
but i cant let go .
cried like fuck .
fake myself that i sleeping in class .
but was crying -.-
friends , you never know i will need you all .
all your actions can speak alot .
i really at a loss now .
wanted to kah hk from zhiyong .
but he dunhave .
ask him want kup $ ma ?
he ask me dun LOL !
cried until recess .
after recess start to high abit .
& your actions to her is that you really LOVE her .
your friendster has her name , you tag her blog :(
& everything laas .
why cant you just wake up ?
& mom's birthday tomorrow .
bought a cake .
jieling came my hse just now .
& we are talking about those guys .
thanks babe ;D
& boy , your everything links to her .
even the storybook you also will ask from her .
dissappointed is what i can say :(
it really hurts me .
maybe sometimes , friends is only what we can be .
you totally treat me like a stranger .
what am I to you ?
how many tears i shed , you know ma ?
the waiting feeling totally sucks but i dun regret & still hold on the wish.
THAT YOU WILL BE BACK .
sometimes , i feel like giving you a slap to wake you up .
peepo must be thinking , why I so bitch into forcing you kind ?
ima not alright ?
i dunwan to see you seating alone .
i rather you are with your friends .

& girl ;
i dunwan to lose a close one like you bcos of a guy !
but i really hope you wun hurt him .
otherwise , let him know & dun make him wait like a fool .
you are eventually giving him hope .
&& if you are ready to accept him .
dun be afraid that i will blame you .
bcos he is happy with you , not with me !
if you only ca remain friends with him all the way , tell him so .
talk to you real soon .
LOVE (:

XoXo , 我从来不怪你 ！
happily waiting for 11 days .